trying to focus

- Your email...
Reading your email on sunday 8.05pm... you wanted to meet me in the lobby of my hotel 10min later and I was absolutely not prepared to that... You had successfully succeded to keep mistery on what will happen during that night and even puting some wrong clues (not sure if it was done on purpose) to let me imagine plenty of things... At this moment I was nearly in a panic mode... not able to think normally anymore.
Last time I have reached half of this stress level, was when I had to make a 1h presentation in front of 200 persons. But even there I was quite more prepared compared to that.
But finally, despite the stress, it was a great moment in your company, just having a simple drink and discussion together. Once I knew that you will not bondage me on the bar in front of everyone, or that you will not ask me to kneel and kiss your feet, I started to destress (a bit). Of course i was totally impressed and captivated, proud also to be there. You were wearing those amazing heels. You had sent me a picture of them already but seeing them in real was a nice emotion. I knew that I will have the opportunity to kiss them later, but I could just see them for now... you quickly noticed that doing sweet moves with your feet was putting me in confusion and you played with it.
I didn't tell you that , but when I went to order drinks at the bar, I spoke in French...twice... before realizing. That gives you a little idea of how confused I was (and why I had this little smile when coming back with the drinks...).
Anyway, I would be happy to do that again next time, maybe knowing before that it will just be for a walk or a drink (but I guess will be less fun for you ;))

- The photoshoot session
You asked me to imagine and write a kind of storyboard of what could be a photo session, focusing on the 3 pair of heels I particularly like and for which you had send me the pictures previously. I have done this task with difficulty but with a lot of pleasure also. And you liked it and decided to make it real !! Here is how it happened for the 3 different scenes :

On my knees, hands on my back, with a mask that was not covering my mouth, I was allowed to kiss your beautiful kisseable heels... I was waiting for this moment since a long time... and it was delicious... Not an easy position to keep but I was able to feel your heels and feet on my lips. This was a very exciting and sweet moment for me.
Honestly, I really do not remember how you were dressed exactly. I just know I have been impressed when I saw you, but then I have been so much focused on your heels. I am very impatient to see the picture of this moment...
Then, for the second round of photos, you were dressed differently with a large skirt and those other nice ropebow heels... I quickly realized that the scenario I had propose you for this photo shoot session will not be doable... For what I had imagine, it was necessary for you to sit down on the floor, and not a chair... But being on my knees, in front of you seated on your chair... it was just impossible to ask you to sit on the floor...
We've tried anyway but without success... and I have started to panic a bit... not knowing what to do to make it work anyway... It took me more than an hour to imagine that scene, and I knew I won't find the inspiration in the next minute... I knew I was supposed to do or propose something but I was not unable to think, unable to move.. I was feeling very bad at that moment, feeling you were really annoyed by the situation, realizing that I was making you loosing your time and the time of the photographer.
You then sat in front of me, very close, expressing your disapointment regarding this moment.
That was difficult for me... I really did not like this... feeling that I had disapointed you, I was ashamed and sad for that. But I knew I will have some time later to improve and tries to make you forget that. I had a few very long minutes alone to think about it... Anyway I found that positive that you shared your frustation : it made it quite more intense when later you said you were proud of me...
One week later, I am not too sure what to think about this moment. It was very strong for me, and I am still wondering what was real and what was played on your side. For now, in doubt, I will keep thinking all was very real...

The 3rd part of the photoshoot session went far better... Dressed in leather, with those amazing heels, you replace the mask by a real leather hood, the one in which I feel so much confortable, the one that cover all my head, difficult to forget its presence, but enjoying it at the same time... Only disadvantage of this hood is that it makes impossible to kiss and it requires a bit of effort to use the tongue to worship your shoes. But that's fine as I was ready to make some effort for that.
I will keep that hood until the end of the night (and I really liked it).
You used your training abilities to drive me to your cage : i just needed to follow the moves of your heels, keeping my attention on them (that was simple !) and I quickly realized I was entering the cage.

- Your cage
I have a kind of love/hate relationship with your cage... I really love the moment when you made me enter the cage, when you looked at me intensively, I loved when you did not make it easy by locking my hands to the cage, I loved seeing you take the padlock and hearing this sweet click sound when I'm finally locked... I'm yours, I am your proud prisonner, at your full disposal...
And then you leave the room and let me alone, isolated... Alone with my thoughts, alone and excited, alone and lost... Being so close and at the same time so far from you.
Trying to guess how long I will stay in the cage....and finally not suceeding
I'm sure I could sleep if the cage were very near from you, in the same room (I would be blinded of course). I could feel your breathing and it would secure me I guess. But being in another room, I am always attentive to every noise, every step, every word you say (oh, nice, just realizing it reminds me a song I like!), being worried when I do not hear nothing for a long time, always hoping you will come back, ... and when this moment happens, yeah that's great. If I had a tail on my back you would see it moving very quickly (well, I am not really a pet fetish, but that is a bit how I feel) !!
The cage is what makes those night session very special and different. I like it a lot.

- Your feet
That was the sweetest moment of this night... Your offered me your heels and your feet to take care and worship !!!
Well, still with the hood, I could not fully use my mouth but I was able to use my tongue.
That was an extremely intense moment for me : confortably installed, fully focused on your feet, I took care of them fully, with devotion, with Love, with emotion, with arousal. Trying to please you as much as possible so that you could not stop that without efforts, trying to be attentive to your preference, trying to relax you, to make you feel good, to make you wanted more, to make you become addictive to it so that it nevers stops...
I have no idea of how long you let me enjoy your feet, but I know that you enjoyed that moment also and that was a great reward for me.
When it stopped, I was not in my normal state anymore... minds empty, like being fully concentrated on something that suddenly stopped.. like being fully excited right to the edge for several minutes and having to stop...
But I really really loved that...

- Your exquisite torturing
You put me in quite different position and made me endure different practices with different tools during that night...
Stand up on a little stool, lying down on the spanking bench, on the floor between your legs, in this delicious body stocking that was envelopping me nicely (I loved it).. I endured the whip, the crop, the cane (not fully sure), the wax, the metal pinwheel (that you seem to particularly appreciate ! for my own pleasure), your hands...

I took lots of pleasure in pain, being proud to endure for you, being ready to give you that. I was not able to control myself... more you were rude, more it was painful, and more I was excited (I could not hide this...). I was sometimes even smiling during whipping but I don't know if you were able to notice it with the hood.
I do not consider myself as a masochist but I am definitely Your masochist.

I particularly loved your several whispering in my ear while I was trapped, before and during spanking...
I will remember also this moment, after playing with the wax (was a bit challenging sometimes, but I loved the whole), when you were cleaning my back while I was cleaning your feet... A simple but sweet moment.

- Your breath play
I really don't remember when you have played exactly with my breathing during that night but I know you did it several time in different situation.
And I particularly love doing that with you. It requires a real trust from both.
Pain is pain and you just know you need to endure. Breath play is a level higher to me.
And I love letting you practice that on me. I love being fully cooperative, trying to encourage you in that direction...
I just tried to make you wonder when I needed to breath without trying to trash. Sometimes you let me breath just on time, sometimes was a little bit further.
It is a very intense feeling for me to know that my life is inside your hands, that you have that power, to give you that power, that you make me feel you have that power and at the same to feel totally safe and secure, even when I feel I need air...
That is a complete let go...

- Your golden shower
This was a gift, a reward. It definitely makes me forget the disapointment of the photo session. I knew that you were satisfied regarding what had happened.
Still wearing that body stocking was a bonus as it was trapping the heat of the liquid.
I tried to keep that sensation longer by caressing my belly with my hands and arms, to keep that delicious heat and wetness coming out from your body to recover mine... I was feeling so grateful for that.

- Your voice
The last part of this wonderful night will remain apart for me... a moment out of time and space...
You made me lay down on the bondage table and start to mummify me with bondage tape. I quickly became immobilized but really confortable.
Then the blindfold, then you insert an inflatable ball gag in my mouth. i knew what is was exactly and how you will use it.
You made my cock and balls accessible, same for my nipples...

Then I was totally yours. Blinded, immobilized, wordless... I just still had my ear to listen to your voice, and my skin to feel pleasure and endure pain .
That was one of the most intense moment I have experiment...

You have played with clamps (I guess) on my cock and balls and also on my nipples.
I knew before it arrives when I will feel pain, I knew when you will inflate the gag before it happens, I knew where you were located in the room.
And i'm sure you knew exactly what i was enduring, when pain was becoming a bit too strong, when I needed to be guided and encouraged, using your voice whispered in my ear, kissing me on my cheek, caressing my head....I was like hypnotized, ready to follow you, your voice, completely.
That was an amazing shared experience...

Then you allowed me to come if I wanted. Until you told me I did not even think about it. Less than 10s later I was releasing all the tension, emotion, excitment I had in my body since 2 days, a complete and wonderful release, so much intense, just produced by a few words whispered in my ear.... so much powerful....

After putting out clamps, you made me feel a bit more confortable by removing the gag and some tape on my hands.
But you keep me mummified and blinded and I'm so grateful you did that. I really did not want to be released immediately at that moment and that was a great idea you keep me like that, letting me the time to recover myself, to re-enter my body, to become myself again...

I have no idea how long I stayed like that. Really no idea... could have been 5min or 1h, I really don't know.

But then you came back, and I was so happy. It was also a very delicious aftercare time... with lots of sweetness, hugs, lights in eyes, smiles, few words. Like if we were understanding each other without any words, knowing what had happened and how strong this was for both of us.
I was finally feeling very well and it took me time to really come back to earth.

I have lived a unique and rare experience that will remain in my heart and mind.
I will also remember strongly those words you whispered : "I'm proud of you"...

With lots of Love
Your slave cris
 

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The Hotel Keycard (the photo you made from it) giffen to me as present to put here too.

And how memorable when it's the seccond time that the hotel made all of it just even more special (both times different hotels) as if......